: Saturday, July 24, 2010
Locked in my own thoughts.
getting lazier each day, with longer alarm snoozes . on friday ,i made my alarm 30mins earlier . but i snoozed it for 50mins ._. so no difference! and im late 1/2 hour for class for the whole week except wednesday cos its it lesson . and i screw it up . i screwed my ecmr presentation as well . nothing's going well .. skipped gems again (4th time) , but still i don't receive any warning letter ?! thats what im worrying about . i want my warning letter T.T
ytd outing was okay only cos i burn another hole in my pocket ..
almost late for work! cos i snoozed for 20mins .. work was tough today , cos ive never felt so worn out . but im so glad theres people giving me the energy to carry on with their smile . at least i felt encouraged atm .
the ride home was long . many things flashes through . and i realised , im not as perfect as i thought . i thought i had already start to appreciate things around me after that incident ..but i wasnt . my complaints are more than my appreciation . i always think im the worst , but im actually only the worse . actually i really dont know what i should do , i keep saying that i wanna die , but is it really that simple to end my life anytime i want ? sigh.
i found my reason why im on earth . it's to find out the reason why im on earth . hah ,what a joke ....
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