received a text at 2am this morning; 'work on sat and sun ,east point 12/hr ,give flyers only.' with that tempting 12/hr i agreed. 2hours of sleep and off to work was really exhausting + that 'meeting' i had at home brought alot more worries that i wish to avoid but i cant .its a fact that ive to accept .sigh .faking smile at work makes me feel pathetic .why do i have to go through all these ?and i know ,its time to feed myself .

im so gonna keep myself occupied to stop myself from those thoughts ! f4 ...