ive no dreams, hopes, etc .ive also no idea what i want due to the circumstances given now .if if if .if only there's if in the world .i always tot of cs ,but i nvr do it .cos im afraid of the pain .and i realised that ,its just an excuse that im afraid of pain .it actually meant tht im afraid of death / or i dont wish to die at all .just wanting to dig a hole to hide from my worries .idk ,im useless .i wan neither death nor alive .its so hard to decide even between this 2 choices .sigh .........

okay ,itp starting soon on the 8th march ,2 days later .and im quite looking forward to it .but i definitely will hate that 55mins of bus ride .i can neither read book nor sleep .reading book on bus cause me headache ,sleeping might overslept .so its just listening to music + wasting of time z .but luckily ,ive one classmate that was attached to the same company as me .hope nothing goes wrong on the first day of itp ,and even everyday [:

having 15BBF outing later on @ 2.50pm .may everything be alright with no complains .im afraid that they will complain on going to hortpark cos they might not like it ;\ but no one gave suggestions so i choose there ,since no one been there before and we could explore it .may tmr be a WINDY day ! shooooo SUNNY !