i admit im useless . small little things , im also afraid to do . this and that , 'i dare not, i dare not' . i wonder what im living for . i hate myself really . its hard to change . cos its my character . i dun even dare to drink , cos i find it bitter . then how can i get drunk ? sigh , why am i here on this earth . its so sad that i can only see you , but not saying hello . 4October2009 1459hr